every girl yearns and dreams for the perfect man to one day walk into her life and then love her just as much as she does for him.same goes for the man.many has had falied relationships,lasting as short as days and as long as eternity.those whom has failed have only one question on their mind.how to make a relationship last forever and till eternity?to me i believe in one thing and only this."eternity" and "forever" is just a word.nothing last forever just as nothing is perfect.
someone once told me that one must go through failure before beginning a journey of success.thus that made me believe it goes the same for love.failed relationships are just part and parcel of love and life itself.thus,nothing last forever my peeps.love is not about loving and be loved by a perfect person,but by loving an imperfect person perfectly.
given a chance,how would i love or rather show the person i love how much i feel for her?below are some of the things that i would do.and btw,those ideas below are not originally designed by yours truly.they are from a bulletin posted by one my my friends in frenster and edited and added some words in it.so yea.i'm not that smart or brilliant after all..those above are original though. =)
1.give her one of my t-shirts to sleep in
2.leave her cute text messages to make her smile because when she does,my heart does too.
3.kiss her in front of my friends to show her that i am not ashamed to be called a guy who loves his gf too much.
4.tell her she looks beautiful just as she always have been.
5.look into her eyes when i talk to her to remind myself of those beautiful eyes which made me fall in love with her.
6.just walk around with her to show her i'll always be by her side.
7.forgive her for her mistakes and hopes that she'll forgive me in return.
8.look at her like she`s the only girl i see because she IS the only girl in my eyes.
9.tickle her even when she says stop just to hear her laugh.
10.hold her hand when i'm around my friends.
11.when she starts swearing at me, tell her i love her.
12.let her fall asleep in my arms and show her that i'm always by her side to shower her with comfort,warmth and also love.
13.get her mad, then kiss her.
14.tease her and let her tease me back to show how stupid and funny we both could be.
15.stay up all night with her when she`s sick to let her know thta be it in times of happiness or sadness,i can and will always be by her side.
16.kiss her forehead.
17.give her the world in order to make her realise that she IS my one and only world.
18.write her letters just as wat romeo did for juliet.
19.let her know she`s important.
20.let her take all the photos she wants for memories sake of me as memories lasts forever.
21.when she`s sad or happy,i'll hang out with her just like always,to let her know in times of happiness or sadness,i'll be wif her all the way.
22.when its raining,i'll kiss her in the pouring rain.
23.when i fall in love with her,i'll tell her just that.
24.and when you tell her, love her like i`ve never loved anyone before.
25.i'll love her and no one else to let her know that she's the one and only in my heart.
there u have it.the things that i'll do for the one girl that i love.i wished i could list down more things than this but then i juz cant.all i can promise her is that i'll love her with all my heart and no one else above her.
p/s:i wish i could be your tear drops,for what more could anyone ask for than to be conceived in your heart,born in your eyes,live on your cheeks,and die on your lips.
Tuesday, March 27, 2007
*DODGEtheBALL!!!!!!!*
victim's name:adrian low
victim's age: 20++
status:dead
time of dead: 7.15pm
place of dead:Metropolitan College Basketball Court
cause of death: dodging+hit by balls in a dodgeball game!
omfg!!i am so dead tired.took part in this dodgeball competition in coll.last minute thingy..well,not exactly last minute cuz i was informed b4 hand but got the day of the event mistaken.=P so without any attire,went scrambling all over coll for a pair of shorts.finally found 1.where?in the student affairs office of couz!the place where u can find just about anything under the sun(well,not everything but literally EVERYTHING!)
so then started playing and playing.by the end of game 1,i was like a guy whom juz completed a sex marathon of 100 straight girls(dream on kid!).by the time i was starting to play game 2,i was juz as weak as any other sissy ppl in coll..it was THAT BAD!trust me it was..
not bad for someone whom got hit in the face,suffered leg cramps IMMEDIATELY after the game,had abit of headache,realised i have a terrible stamina disorder and also face problem..not bad huh for a guy playing dodgeball for the 1st time in his entire life!anyone else wanna dodge wif me? =)
here's a lil sumthing for "who" on my c-box..and also to all those ppl out there reading this blog..here's the latest song hitting my head and mind rite now,a song by jordan knight and deborah gibson,titled "say goodbye"..oh ya,shakti if ur reading,here's for u too.. =)
victim's age: 20++
status:dead
time of dead: 7.15pm
place of dead:Metropolitan College Basketball Court
cause of death: dodging+hit by balls in a dodgeball game!
omfg!!i am so dead tired.took part in this dodgeball competition in coll.last minute thingy..well,not exactly last minute cuz i was informed b4 hand but got the day of the event mistaken.=P so without any attire,went scrambling all over coll for a pair of shorts.finally found 1.where?in the student affairs office of couz!the place where u can find just about anything under the sun(well,not everything but literally EVERYTHING!)
so then started playing and playing.by the end of game 1,i was like a guy whom juz completed a sex marathon of 100 straight girls(dream on kid!).by the time i was starting to play game 2,i was juz as weak as any other sissy ppl in coll..it was THAT BAD!trust me it was..
not bad for someone whom got hit in the face,suffered leg cramps IMMEDIATELY after the game,had abit of headache,realised i have a terrible stamina disorder and also face problem..not bad huh for a guy playing dodgeball for the 1st time in his entire life!anyone else wanna dodge wif me? =)
here's a lil sumthing for "who" on my c-box..and also to all those ppl out there reading this blog..here's the latest song hitting my head and mind rite now,a song by jordan knight and deborah gibson,titled "say goodbye"..oh ya,shakti if ur reading,here's for u too.. =)
Monday, March 26, 2007
*title-less*
its just yet another untitled post.the only difference is the title of this post.i got kinda sick and tired of using the term untitled that i had to settle for this term.
anyway,came across something in coll.a rather sentimental love quote i got from benson's book of love.thanx benson.so i read it and it instantly made me realised how true it was..here's how it goes..read it with ur full attention.
"none of us has the power to make someone else love us.but we have the power to give away love and to love others.by doing so,we can change the kind of person we are and it will also change the kind of world we live in.."
think about it.isnt it true?most of us feels that love can only be shared amongst the people we are close with,always around us and people we care.i beg to differ.if the world would be selfish about their love,war between communities would be twice or even thrice the amount it is now.many feels that by not loving people that we dont know,we are act safe from the disturbance of many things.think about it properly,shall we?if we were to love juz the people around us,wat bout those whom really needs love?it doesnt matter from whom do they need it,its the matter of whom should be loving them.by not loving others that we do not know,we are actually killing more ppl that the war has done.
take angelina jolie for instance.many has condemned her action of adopting another child.some say its for publicity sake,some say for the sake of covering all the problems she has had with her beloved husband.but have we ever looked at the other side of the story?i believe that it was her love for all these childrens that made her adopt another.god forbid war,ut did HE ever forbid us to love people we dont know?i bet he didnt.be it the buddha,Jesus himself or rather prophet muhammad.they encouraged us to love and to love we must.if angelina has the wealth and the time,she will most probably adopt orphans worldwide and shower them with all the love she and her husband can give.tthese orphans requested no wealth,food or fancy,expensive clothings that we are wearing on our backs.all they ever wanted was to feel the love they never had the opportunity to cherish.love as generally known,is a powerful word.a word which can change ppl's life forever;in a good or bad way; and also make ppl realise how beautiful this world could be.
earlier i requested for you to read quote posted with attention.now re-read it,this time add in a lil pinch of love,a portion of warmth and a lot of joy.if u read it earlier and realised its juz like any other love quotes i posted,then re-read like i did.it will give u a different feeling that it 1st gave you.
i requote once again. "...it will also change the kind of world we live in.." why not make this world a better place to live in?or are we juz gonna let it fend for itself and continue loving the way we have always done?i certainly have changed my perception about love..perhaps i shud look into the mirror and ask myself,"have i love?" or maybe to be precise,"have i been loved?"
p/s:i have no intention to offend any1's religion..it was juz for posting and not be used otherwise.god bless everyone..
pp/s:especially angelina jolie =)
*an additional something*
I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever
anyway,came across something in coll.a rather sentimental love quote i got from benson's book of love.thanx benson.so i read it and it instantly made me realised how true it was..here's how it goes..read it with ur full attention.
"none of us has the power to make someone else love us.but we have the power to give away love and to love others.by doing so,we can change the kind of person we are and it will also change the kind of world we live in.."
think about it.isnt it true?most of us feels that love can only be shared amongst the people we are close with,always around us and people we care.i beg to differ.if the world would be selfish about their love,war between communities would be twice or even thrice the amount it is now.many feels that by not loving people that we dont know,we are act safe from the disturbance of many things.think about it properly,shall we?if we were to love juz the people around us,wat bout those whom really needs love?it doesnt matter from whom do they need it,its the matter of whom should be loving them.by not loving others that we do not know,we are actually killing more ppl that the war has done.
take angelina jolie for instance.many has condemned her action of adopting another child.some say its for publicity sake,some say for the sake of covering all the problems she has had with her beloved husband.but have we ever looked at the other side of the story?i believe that it was her love for all these childrens that made her adopt another.god forbid war,ut did HE ever forbid us to love people we dont know?i bet he didnt.be it the buddha,Jesus himself or rather prophet muhammad.they encouraged us to love and to love we must.if angelina has the wealth and the time,she will most probably adopt orphans worldwide and shower them with all the love she and her husband can give.tthese orphans requested no wealth,food or fancy,expensive clothings that we are wearing on our backs.all they ever wanted was to feel the love they never had the opportunity to cherish.love as generally known,is a powerful word.a word which can change ppl's life forever;in a good or bad way; and also make ppl realise how beautiful this world could be.
earlier i requested for you to read quote posted with attention.now re-read it,this time add in a lil pinch of love,a portion of warmth and a lot of joy.if u read it earlier and realised its juz like any other love quotes i posted,then re-read like i did.it will give u a different feeling that it 1st gave you.
i requote once again. "...it will also change the kind of world we live in.." why not make this world a better place to live in?or are we juz gonna let it fend for itself and continue loving the way we have always done?i certainly have changed my perception about love..perhaps i shud look into the mirror and ask myself,"have i love?" or maybe to be precise,"have i been loved?"
p/s:i have no intention to offend any1's religion..it was juz for posting and not be used otherwise.god bless everyone..
pp/s:especially angelina jolie =)
*an additional something*
I know in reality we can't be together, so I just close my eyes and you're right here with me... in my dreams you're mine forever
Friday, March 23, 2007
*choices*
When we meet the right person to love,when we're at the right place at the right time,That's chance.When you meet someone you're attracted to,that's not a choice.That's chance.Being caught up in a moment(and there's a lot of couples who get together because of this) is not a choice.That's also a chance.
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush,that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his/her faults, that's not a chance.That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person,no matter what, that's choice.Even if you knowthere are many people out there who are more attractive,smarter, and richer than your mate,and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,That's choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice, a choice that we make.Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this:"Fate brings you together,but it's still up to you to make it happen."I do believe that soul mates do exist.That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance,but loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love.But to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.
Don't go for looks, they could deceive.Don't go for wealth, even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile to make a dark day seems bright.And for those who r still confused of ur feelings, u gotta read this again.Make a good choice, make it happen,and I hope you'll find the one that makes you smile..
The difference is what happens afterwards. When will you take that infatuation, that crush,that mind-blowing attraction to the next level?That's when all sanity goes back, you sit down and contemplate whether you want to make this into a concrete relationship or just a fling. If you decide to love a person, even with his/her faults, that's not a chance.That's choice.
When you choose to be with a person,no matter what, that's choice.Even if you knowthere are many people out there who are more attractive,smarter, and richer than your mate,and yet, you decide to love your mate just the same,That's choice.
Infatuation, crushes, attraction comes to us by chance. But true love that lasts is truly a choice, a choice that we make.Regarding soul mates, there's a beautiful movie quote that I believe is so true about this:"Fate brings you together,but it's still up to you to make it happen."I do believe that soul mates do exist.That there is truly someone made for you. But it's still up to you to make the choice if you're going to do something about it or not.
We may meet our soul mates by chance,but loving and staying with our soulmate is still a choice we have to make.We came to the world not by finding someone perfect to love.But to learn how to love an imperfect person perfectly.
Don't go for looks, they could deceive.Don't go for wealth, even that fades away.Go for someone who makes you smile to make a dark day seems bright.And for those who r still confused of ur feelings, u gotta read this again.Make a good choice, make it happen,and I hope you'll find the one that makes you smile..
Thursday, March 22, 2007
Annie Ludbrook
a very nice quote by Annie Ludbrook.its a really inspiring to some and also to me in this case.thanx jin li.. =)
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
"As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let you down probably will. You will have your heart broken probably more than once and it's harder every time. You'll break hearts too, so remember how it felt when yours was broken. You'll fight with your best friend. You'll blame a new love for things an old one did. You'll cry because time is passing too fast, and you'll eventually lose someone you love. So take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt because every sixty seconds you spend upset is a minute of happiness you'll never get back."
Tuesday, March 20, 2007
*mistakes*
i am now feeling god damn sick.i'm having flu,fever and i juz recovered from my sore throat.hows that for a good day?the downside?Digi rejected out proposal..which means we are now kinda desperate to search for a title sponsor.but knowing the boys under the leadership of keshyvinder dhillon,i know we can overcome just about any obstacle that comes our way..
i had my photo shoot and catwalk video taken for my mr. and ms. metroball.i was having a very bad running nose and kinda affected my photoshoot..i think i screwed that up.i read jin's blog.she had a post which had a meaningful quote..honestly it did make me reflect on life itself..why not check it out urself..it might juz do u good..
life has always been unfair,not only to others,but especially to me..how come whenever shit happens,i happened to be the one to create all those shit?its not like i did it,i am accused of doing it.i am always accused of doing things i never once did,saying things i never said,and acting the way that i am always accused of.i juz cant understand why i can be blame for things i have never done.like ppl used to say,"nice guys never win.they always end up as loser..so if u wanna win,be it the clean or dirty way,be the bad guy."
i stil dunt know wat i'm gonna do for my talent show on aussie day.i told joyce that i'll be dancing since andy has agreed to choreograph my dance moves for me..i juz hope i'll have the time to practise.time's juz slipping away.one of the nominees for mr. and ms. metro was asked,"if u were given special powers,wat would it be and why?"..i dunt know wat he/she answered but if i was asked that question,i juz wished that i would have the power to juz make problems disappear.juz like that in a click of a thumb.why so?i juz wanna make this world a peaceful place,and make it better for everyone around me.saying all thse yet knowing its impossible..
i'm sick and i wished that someone could just take my life away.i hate living in this world.i hate ppl accusing me of making life miserable for them..but then again,who am i to dissapoint those whom has always been there for me and caring for me?i juz wanna leave for perth as early as possible.it would be a moment i would cherish..for all u know,i might not wanna come back after that..hows that? =)
to RSO,good luck in ur petition thingy.hopefully u ppl will get wat ur aiming for..to MMEC,guys let work our ass off and make auto fiesta v.3 a successful one and put it into the history book..hows that?
to those sitting for mid sem,good luck and all the best.. =)
i had my photo shoot and catwalk video taken for my mr. and ms. metroball.i was having a very bad running nose and kinda affected my photoshoot..i think i screwed that up.i read jin's blog.she had a post which had a meaningful quote..honestly it did make me reflect on life itself..why not check it out urself..it might juz do u good..
life has always been unfair,not only to others,but especially to me..how come whenever shit happens,i happened to be the one to create all those shit?its not like i did it,i am accused of doing it.i am always accused of doing things i never once did,saying things i never said,and acting the way that i am always accused of.i juz cant understand why i can be blame for things i have never done.like ppl used to say,"nice guys never win.they always end up as loser..so if u wanna win,be it the clean or dirty way,be the bad guy."
i stil dunt know wat i'm gonna do for my talent show on aussie day.i told joyce that i'll be dancing since andy has agreed to choreograph my dance moves for me..i juz hope i'll have the time to practise.time's juz slipping away.one of the nominees for mr. and ms. metro was asked,"if u were given special powers,wat would it be and why?"..i dunt know wat he/she answered but if i was asked that question,i juz wished that i would have the power to juz make problems disappear.juz like that in a click of a thumb.why so?i juz wanna make this world a peaceful place,and make it better for everyone around me.saying all thse yet knowing its impossible..
i'm sick and i wished that someone could just take my life away.i hate living in this world.i hate ppl accusing me of making life miserable for them..but then again,who am i to dissapoint those whom has always been there for me and caring for me?i juz wanna leave for perth as early as possible.it would be a moment i would cherish..for all u know,i might not wanna come back after that..hows that? =)
to RSO,good luck in ur petition thingy.hopefully u ppl will get wat ur aiming for..to MMEC,guys let work our ass off and make auto fiesta v.3 a successful one and put it into the history book..hows that?
to those sitting for mid sem,good luck and all the best.. =)
Sunday, March 18, 2007
fullstop!
i am very tired yet i'm stil f*****g sitting in front of this laptop TRYING to update my blog with another post..i think i;m kinda getting tired of blogging since nothing much has been happening lately..
on the other hand,went to ipoh for nothing,wasted half a day there,and the rushed all the way down to Midvalley to help out at the NAPEI edu fair..nothing much..hot chicks were no where to be seen,none at all act..lim kok wing hired mat rempit lookalike to promote them...wat else is new??nothing else i guess..
bangsar pasar malam has been relocated,to the back of the new bangsar village..uvan and i did nothing but ate and ate non stop..we invaded the lok lok stall (TWICE!!!!),the fried carrot cake stall,wanted to invade the stadium poh piah stall but then the queue was as long as those makcik and pakcik and kaypo waiting to buy 4-d in a shop..my god..then invaded the sugarcane stall and summore got wat i forget d..
then we made our way back..its been a tiring and boring day..i'm stil searching for a life and also along the way hoping to bump into a miracle..i need a life saving and life changing one...
perhaps i shud juz shut my mouth and carry with wat has been planned for me by the "big boss" up above.. =)
on the other hand,went to ipoh for nothing,wasted half a day there,and the rushed all the way down to Midvalley to help out at the NAPEI edu fair..nothing much..hot chicks were no where to be seen,none at all act..lim kok wing hired mat rempit lookalike to promote them...wat else is new??nothing else i guess..
bangsar pasar malam has been relocated,to the back of the new bangsar village..uvan and i did nothing but ate and ate non stop..we invaded the lok lok stall (TWICE!!!!),the fried carrot cake stall,wanted to invade the stadium poh piah stall but then the queue was as long as those makcik and pakcik and kaypo waiting to buy 4-d in a shop..my god..then invaded the sugarcane stall and summore got wat i forget d..
then we made our way back..its been a tiring and boring day..i'm stil searching for a life and also along the way hoping to bump into a miracle..i need a life saving and life changing one...
perhaps i shud juz shut my mouth and carry with wat has been planned for me by the "big boss" up above.. =)
Saturday, March 17, 2007
*another untitled post*
i'm beginning to wonder why am i giving "untitled" to this post of mine?then again i realised that not only this but some of my post has had this "untitled" as a title.maybe life to me now isnt that interesting anymore..
so recap of wat yours truly have been doing since my previous update.on thursday was the bomb.i had so many things to do.i was literally running all around coll to handle my MMEC car wash all morning.blardy BP idiots(i juz found out they were from there and not from Mobil instead) came at only 10 am then the 9 am promised!idiots!but then again they did a good job cleaning all the cars so i guess i have to compliment them..and they did it really REALLY well..i salute all car washers especially the ones from the BP station opposite metro..!!wuahahahahaha!!!then i had my grease preview.i was literally worned out by the time i got to the concourse.i was shaking trembling and i was told that the mr. and ms. metro preview will start rite after we are done wif grease.i was like "wtf!!?!?!?!then how am i gonna get changed in time??"..omg..but then again,grease turned out well.didnt even forget any of my dance moves and the finale pose,shakti's song was great,she sang her heart out and i meant really well..then i changed into my outfit behind the stair in like wat,less than a minute.i shud be getting an award for that u know!!it was well worth it at least.
i was shaking and trembling by the time i got to my turn.the rest was like way way better than me and i was under like so much pressure.i walked thru the balloons,did my walk,pose for every1 and it was time for like the INTERVIEW!wat a scary way to calm myself down!dang!i screwed that 1 up i think!
arthur went like "describe urself and why did u choose to wear this outfit?"oh btw.i wore a white suit,a long sleeve shirt,grey jeans and my ever faithful nike cortez.i was like "i'm adrian etc etc etc.why i chose this outfit?i'm trying my very best to be like every girl's knight in shining armour, and its kinda heavy so i decided to be the prince on a white horse,cantonese saying `pak ma wong chi" but i guess i'm failing miserably in that.."i was telling myself"adrian u idiot!why the hell did u say that!!!!"then came the question,if u were a fairytale character wat would u be and why?" i dun wanna further elaborate on this.cuz if i do,i'll be teased at for the rest of my life.my answer was however pinocchio.why!?!??!dun ask..u dun wanna know..
the came the tense moment.the elimination process..!matt's fingers was crossed if i wasnt mistaken.sean was calm,so was bryan,jason,tze min,amelie(she's hot!!!omg!!!),alfred and the rest of the other la..
matt's name then mine was announced.!omg..i made it..like wat the hell..i didnt really expected it though.then now i've gotta prepare for my photoshoot on tuesday and figure out wat i'm gonna do on the talent show thingy!shit!i cant sing for nuts..left wif only one option..
then back to the car wash.it went pretty well act,although the paria rain caused my 10 bucks to flow down the drain!mother nature!hmmphh!!!but we really did better than wat i've expected.35 cars and if the rain didnt stop us,we could have hit 50 and more..dang!stupid rain!profit was split 50-50 from wat we have agreed.so everything's cool..
other than that,i've been doing nothing but spending most of my time in rack and wif the MMEC boys..i really need to get a life..i need a miracle..anybody wanna be mine?=)
so recap of wat yours truly have been doing since my previous update.on thursday was the bomb.i had so many things to do.i was literally running all around coll to handle my MMEC car wash all morning.blardy BP idiots(i juz found out they were from there and not from Mobil instead) came at only 10 am then the 9 am promised!idiots!but then again they did a good job cleaning all the cars so i guess i have to compliment them..and they did it really REALLY well..i salute all car washers especially the ones from the BP station opposite metro..!!wuahahahahaha!!!then i had my grease preview.i was literally worned out by the time i got to the concourse.i was shaking trembling and i was told that the mr. and ms. metro preview will start rite after we are done wif grease.i was like "wtf!!?!?!?!then how am i gonna get changed in time??"..omg..but then again,grease turned out well.didnt even forget any of my dance moves and the finale pose,shakti's song was great,she sang her heart out and i meant really well..then i changed into my outfit behind the stair in like wat,less than a minute.i shud be getting an award for that u know!!it was well worth it at least.
i was shaking and trembling by the time i got to my turn.the rest was like way way better than me and i was under like so much pressure.i walked thru the balloons,did my walk,pose for every1 and it was time for like the INTERVIEW!wat a scary way to calm myself down!dang!i screwed that 1 up i think!
arthur went like "describe urself and why did u choose to wear this outfit?"oh btw.i wore a white suit,a long sleeve shirt,grey jeans and my ever faithful nike cortez.i was like "i'm adrian etc etc etc.why i chose this outfit?i'm trying my very best to be like every girl's knight in shining armour, and its kinda heavy so i decided to be the prince on a white horse,cantonese saying `pak ma wong chi" but i guess i'm failing miserably in that.."i was telling myself"adrian u idiot!why the hell did u say that!!!!"then came the question,if u were a fairytale character wat would u be and why?" i dun wanna further elaborate on this.cuz if i do,i'll be teased at for the rest of my life.my answer was however pinocchio.why!?!??!dun ask..u dun wanna know..
the came the tense moment.the elimination process..!matt's fingers was crossed if i wasnt mistaken.sean was calm,so was bryan,jason,tze min,amelie(she's hot!!!omg!!!),alfred and the rest of the other la..
matt's name then mine was announced.!omg..i made it..like wat the hell..i didnt really expected it though.then now i've gotta prepare for my photoshoot on tuesday and figure out wat i'm gonna do on the talent show thingy!shit!i cant sing for nuts..left wif only one option..
then back to the car wash.it went pretty well act,although the paria rain caused my 10 bucks to flow down the drain!mother nature!hmmphh!!!but we really did better than wat i've expected.35 cars and if the rain didnt stop us,we could have hit 50 and more..dang!stupid rain!profit was split 50-50 from wat we have agreed.so everything's cool..
other than that,i've been doing nothing but spending most of my time in rack and wif the MMEC boys..i really need to get a life..i need a miracle..anybody wanna be mine?=)
Monday, March 12, 2007
*untitled*
to those who read my previous post,i've described about the bad week that i had the entire of last week.today i met up with the top ppl of the CSO's board and gave them an explanation of wat has happened and that full responsibility was to be shouldered by me and no one else.as expected they were dissapointed by wat happened last friday and watever happened shud have been avoided.but however they wanted to think over my decision and i was given till this friday to do so..i on the other hand have set my mind on wat i want and might not have any changes on my decision.time shall tell..
everything that needs to be said has been said and done.i'm done here.but for now,all i'm prioritising now is the autoFiesta v.3 that the MMEC is handling this semester.on the other stuffs,i guess,they'll juz have to wait.
things between me n other ppl has also been been cleared.rite now,i juz wanna concentrate on nothing else but myself..besides,there's no other priority.its only me,myself and no one else but me..wat else could be bothering me now?*fingers crossed*
all i can say is that god bless me for now and in the process,might as well bless those around me.. =) *smiles*
once again,to all those that i've offended in the past,forgive me.to those i've hurt,forgive me as well..and to those that hsa brought joy to my life,god bless u even more.no!this may sound like a good-bye speech and like i'm "leaving" but then dun worry.i'm fine.juz felt sudden emo-ness and wanted to write sumthing.some sort of appreciation thingy. *smiles*
to a special person,thanx for being there all these while.bein there when i needed u to,stood by my side when i was in times of trouble,searching for me when i gone M.I.A,and also caring for me in every possible way.i juz cant imagine life without you by my side.god bless u and u do know i love you rite,fei por??? *smiles even bigger* =)
p/s:god bless all of you.. =)
everything that needs to be said has been said and done.i'm done here.but for now,all i'm prioritising now is the autoFiesta v.3 that the MMEC is handling this semester.on the other stuffs,i guess,they'll juz have to wait.
things between me n other ppl has also been been cleared.rite now,i juz wanna concentrate on nothing else but myself..besides,there's no other priority.its only me,myself and no one else but me..wat else could be bothering me now?*fingers crossed*
all i can say is that god bless me for now and in the process,might as well bless those around me.. =) *smiles*
once again,to all those that i've offended in the past,forgive me.to those i've hurt,forgive me as well..and to those that hsa brought joy to my life,god bless u even more.no!this may sound like a good-bye speech and like i'm "leaving" but then dun worry.i'm fine.juz felt sudden emo-ness and wanted to write sumthing.some sort of appreciation thingy. *smiles*
to a special person,thanx for being there all these while.bein there when i needed u to,stood by my side when i was in times of trouble,searching for me when i gone M.I.A,and also caring for me in every possible way.i juz cant imagine life without you by my side.god bless u and u do know i love you rite,fei por??? *smiles even bigger* =)
p/s:god bless all of you.. =)
Sunday, March 11, 2007
*a public apology*
i'm so glad that the week has finally come to an end.a week which was like a living hell for me,and also a week that i believe i will spend my half my entire life forgetting..
i havent been having enuff sleep this past few days.reasons unknowned,but all i know was that i am seriously deprived of sleep and rest.friday was the busiest day of the week,and how was i to know,sumthing was planned by god for me that might/would change my life forever..i'm not talking bout my life as a whole,but also my coll life as well..
it happened during the orientation nite.this is sumthing that ppl there would know and to those who were by my side during my hard times,to those who cared on where i was,wat i was doing and wat happened,i thank you from the bottom of my heart.i cant thank u enuff and sorry that i dissapointed u guys.
to all who were there,esp the hardworking comm whom worked so hard thru out the entire planning and the event itself,i wanna apologize for wat i did,and i take full responsibility of wat has happened.the blame shud go to no one else other that me myself,and i shall be ready for watever consequences or actions that u guys have lined up for me.i juz hope that after wat has happened and going to happen during post mortem,we can stil talk,eat,walk and do everything else like we're stil frens..i'm really sorry..
to two of my good frens,i wish the both of you good luck and may god bless the both of you,if the news that i heard from u two is right..u two would be the most blessing,happy and made-for-each-other kind of couple, and for this,may god bless u two even more..
its a funny world out there.ppl say that whenever a couple get together,there would be two less lonely ppl in the world.i was thinking,wat if someone else was in love with one of the other party?i mean,yes,the amount of lonely ppl in the world would have lessen but would the amount of pain suffered by the third person be reduced as well?as ppl are getting together,i juz realised i lost someone whom i thought was the perfect person for me,even though i know it was impossible for this particular person to be in love with me.i secretly kept my feelings for this particular person as a secret between me,and two other frens which i know are my best buddies.i however regretted several things..that is not trying my best to make this particular person to have the same feeling as i have for her,that is to not let her know how i felt towards her all this while,and also that i gave up all efforts before i even tried anything.this is wat i regretted the most..
this particular person was the perfect person that any guy would be proud to acknowledge as his girlfriend. she's a pretty person,a smart one as well,not a bookworm,has all the enthusiasm to do anything she would love to do,to say wat she wants to say without caring for wat others would think about her,her charisma,her bravery,her smile and if i were to continue describing her,it would take me ages to complete half the journey of describing her.it may sound exaggerating but trust my every word,its true..she's wat i would call,an angel from heaven..
now that she has found her someone special,i wish her all the best,and good luck in everything they do.u might know who you are,but plz,lets just let it remain a secret i have and u juz happen to find out about it..god bless u and him,and good luck..
On the outside,I'm living,pretending that I've forgotten you.Deep in my heart however,I'm suffering,knowing that I've lost you.
i havent been having enuff sleep this past few days.reasons unknowned,but all i know was that i am seriously deprived of sleep and rest.friday was the busiest day of the week,and how was i to know,sumthing was planned by god for me that might/would change my life forever..i'm not talking bout my life as a whole,but also my coll life as well..
it happened during the orientation nite.this is sumthing that ppl there would know and to those who were by my side during my hard times,to those who cared on where i was,wat i was doing and wat happened,i thank you from the bottom of my heart.i cant thank u enuff and sorry that i dissapointed u guys.
to all who were there,esp the hardworking comm whom worked so hard thru out the entire planning and the event itself,i wanna apologize for wat i did,and i take full responsibility of wat has happened.the blame shud go to no one else other that me myself,and i shall be ready for watever consequences or actions that u guys have lined up for me.i juz hope that after wat has happened and going to happen during post mortem,we can stil talk,eat,walk and do everything else like we're stil frens..i'm really sorry..
to two of my good frens,i wish the both of you good luck and may god bless the both of you,if the news that i heard from u two is right..u two would be the most blessing,happy and made-for-each-other kind of couple, and for this,may god bless u two even more..
its a funny world out there.ppl say that whenever a couple get together,there would be two less lonely ppl in the world.i was thinking,wat if someone else was in love with one of the other party?i mean,yes,the amount of lonely ppl in the world would have lessen but would the amount of pain suffered by the third person be reduced as well?as ppl are getting together,i juz realised i lost someone whom i thought was the perfect person for me,even though i know it was impossible for this particular person to be in love with me.i secretly kept my feelings for this particular person as a secret between me,and two other frens which i know are my best buddies.i however regretted several things..that is not trying my best to make this particular person to have the same feeling as i have for her,that is to not let her know how i felt towards her all this while,and also that i gave up all efforts before i even tried anything.this is wat i regretted the most..
this particular person was the perfect person that any guy would be proud to acknowledge as his girlfriend. she's a pretty person,a smart one as well,not a bookworm,has all the enthusiasm to do anything she would love to do,to say wat she wants to say without caring for wat others would think about her,her charisma,her bravery,her smile and if i were to continue describing her,it would take me ages to complete half the journey of describing her.it may sound exaggerating but trust my every word,its true..she's wat i would call,an angel from heaven..
now that she has found her someone special,i wish her all the best,and good luck in everything they do.u might know who you are,but plz,lets just let it remain a secret i have and u juz happen to find out about it..god bless u and him,and good luck..
On the outside,I'm living,pretending that I've forgotten you.Deep in my heart however,I'm suffering,knowing that I've lost you.
Wednesday, March 7, 2007
*laziness..*
i realised i've been getting lazy and lazier this past several weeks.spend as much time as i can on bed(sleeping), and less time in classes..waking up everyday juz to go for class has been hell.i had to literally drag myself outta bed juz to head into the shower and prepare to walk into metropolitan coll.
a clear sign of my laziness??look at my quote of the day section.it has been changed to quote of the week.i've been juz to lazy to update them everyday so i decided to do it on a weekly basis..enjoy them and enjoy life as well guys!
tomoro C&S day..i wonder where should i be?MMEC,CSO,M&M,or the basketball club booth?i shall juz make a decision tomoro then..
jin lost her phone today,and i lost my finance textbook which was juz one day old..ceon and jason both lost RM200 in a pool game.how come ppl seems to be losing things today?all these makes me wonder...
will i ever be losing YOU?
i hope not.cuz i know that living a life without YOU is a life without any meaning..
a clear sign of my laziness??look at my quote of the day section.it has been changed to quote of the week.i've been juz to lazy to update them everyday so i decided to do it on a weekly basis..enjoy them and enjoy life as well guys!
tomoro C&S day..i wonder where should i be?MMEC,CSO,M&M,or the basketball club booth?i shall juz make a decision tomoro then..
jin lost her phone today,and i lost my finance textbook which was juz one day old..ceon and jason both lost RM200 in a pool game.how come ppl seems to be losing things today?all these makes me wonder...
will i ever be losing YOU?
i hope not.cuz i know that living a life without YOU is a life without any meaning..
Monday, March 5, 2007
i was act sitting down waiting for lydia to come back to continue our chatting session.how was i to know,she came back 15-20 minutes later with a msg" you are tagged!!!" the first thing that came thru my mind..? wat the fuck!!!?!?!?!ok so anyway..here's how it goes..
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.
1.i can't sit still.i need to either lift my leg to put on the chair(a.k.a chinaman style) or walk around..
2.i love talking..even to ppl i juz met...
3.i can't stop eating when i'm frustrated..(explains the size of my body now..)
4.once i start playing pool,i can't stop
5.i love to sing,before i go to bed.however,due to all those cracks in my room which was caused by my horrible horrible singing,i reduced them..
6.i love shopping.i can't stop once i start.shoppaholic..
7.sleeping happens to be sumthing that i do best
8.loves having slumber party at home..
9.loves "playing" around wif the frens..(dun ask wat..u wouldnt wanna know..)
10.am gonna make disturbing lydia kwan a habit if she doesnt meet up wif me by this sunday..!!
SIX people i tag... but up to u lah if u wanna do ;)
1.Marco Soo
2.Pay Tze Min(if she's reading)
3.Lydia (i re-tagged lydia cuz i know she has another 10 more weird habits to list down!! xP)
4.miracole
5.caryn (due to boredom_
6.shakti siva (since she's too free and has been spending her time doing "detective works.."
p/s:i hope ur happy..xP..love you lots!
Each player of this game starts off with ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own ten weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose six people to be tagged and list their names.
1.i can't sit still.i need to either lift my leg to put on the chair(a.k.a chinaman style) or walk around..
2.i love talking..even to ppl i juz met...
3.i can't stop eating when i'm frustrated..(explains the size of my body now..)
4.once i start playing pool,i can't stop
5.i love to sing,before i go to bed.however,due to all those cracks in my room which was caused by my horrible horrible singing,i reduced them..
6.i love shopping.i can't stop once i start.shoppaholic..
7.sleeping happens to be sumthing that i do best
8.loves having slumber party at home..
9.loves "playing" around wif the frens..(dun ask wat..u wouldnt wanna know..)
10.am gonna make disturbing lydia kwan a habit if she doesnt meet up wif me by this sunday..!!
SIX people i tag... but up to u lah if u wanna do ;)
1.Marco Soo
2.Pay Tze Min(if she's reading)
3.Lydia (i re-tagged lydia cuz i know she has another 10 more weird habits to list down!! xP)
4.miracole
5.caryn (due to boredom_
6.shakti siva (since she's too free and has been spending her time doing "detective works.."
p/s:i hope ur happy..xP..love you lots!
Sunday, March 4, 2007
*fallin' in love*
It is a mystery why we fall in love.It is a mystery how it happens. It is a mystery when it comes.It is a mystery why some love grows and it is a mystery why some love fails.
we can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes but we will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience.Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body,love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that
cannot be questioned in its ways.
Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower.Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty.This is the dream we all share.More often,it will come and take hold of you,celebrate you for a brief moment,then move on.
When this happen to young people,they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them,refusing to see that it is a gift that just as freely, moves away.When they fall out of love,or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was,then moving on.
They want answers where there are no answers.They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change,
thinking that if some small things were different,love would bloom again.They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life,their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened.But there is no meaning beyond the love itself,and until they accept its own mysterious ways,they live in a sea of misery.
You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. here is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't
choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honored that love came and called at your door,but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage and do not cause pain.How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself.All our hearts feel the same pains and joys,even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another,and she falls in love with you,and then love chooses to leave,do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame.Let it go.There is a reason and there is a meaning.You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,then reach out and give it away.Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.
There is where many lovers go wrong.Having been so long without love,they understand love only as a need.They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love,and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing,but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this and keep it to your heart.Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going.You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it
comes to you.But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.Love always has been andalways will be a mystery.be glad that it came to live in your life,even if it was for a moment..
If you keep you heart open,it will come again..
we can analyze this mystery and look for reasons and causes but we will never do anymore that take the life out of the experience.Just as life itself is more than the sum of the bones and muscles and electrical impulses in the body,love is more than the sum of the interests and attractions and commonalities that two people share. And just as life itself is a gift that comes and goes in its own time, so too, the coming of love must be taken as an unfathomable gift that
cannot be questioned in its ways.
Sometimes, hopefully at least once in your life - the gift of love will come to you in full flower.Take hold of it and celebrate it in all inexpressible beauty.This is the dream we all share.More often,it will come and take hold of you,celebrate you for a brief moment,then move on.
When this happen to young people,they too often try to grasp the love and hold it to them,refusing to see that it is a gift that just as freely, moves away.When they fall out of love,or the person they love feels the spirit of love leaving,they try desperately to reclaim the love that is lost rather than accepting the gift for what it was,then moving on.
They want answers where there are no answers.They want to know what is wrong in them that makes the other person no longer love them, or try to get their love to change,
thinking that if some small things were different,love would bloom again.They blame their circumstances and say that if they go far away and start a new life,their love will grow.
They try anything to give meaning to what has happened.But there is no meaning beyond the love itself,and until they accept its own mysterious ways,they live in a sea of misery.
You need to know this about love, and accept it. You need to treat what it brings you with kindness.If you find yourself in love with someone who does not love you, be gentle with yourself. here is nothing wrong with you. Love just didn't
choose to rest in the other person's heart.
If you find someone in love with you but you don't love him back, feel honored that love came and called at your door,but gently refuse the gift you cannot return. Do not take advantage and do not cause pain.How you deal with love is how you deal with yourself.All our hearts feel the same pains and joys,even if our lives and ways are different.
If you fall in love with another,and she falls in love with you,and then love chooses to leave,do not try to reclaim it nor to assess blame.Let it go.There is a reason and there is a meaning.You will know in time.
Remember that you don't choose love. Love chooses you.All you can really do is accept it for all its mystery when it comes into your life.Feel the way it fills you to overflowing,then reach out and give it away.Give it back to the person who brought it alive in you. Give it to others who deem it poor in spirit. Give it to the world around you in any way you can.
There is where many lovers go wrong.Having been so long without love,they understand love only as a need.They see their hearts as empty places that will be filled by love,and they begin to look at love as something that flows to them rather than from them.
The first blush of new love is filled to overflowing,but as their love cools, they revert to seeing their love as a need.They cease to be someone who generates love and instead become someone who seeks love.They forget that the secret of love is that it is a gift, and that it can be made to grow only by giving it away.
Remember this and keep it to your heart.Love has its time, its own season, its own reason for coming and going.You cannot bribe it or coerce it, or reason it into staying.You can only embrace it when it arrives and give it away when it
comes to you.But if it chooses to leave from your heart or from the heart of your lover, there is nothing you can do and there is nothing you should do.Love always has been andalways will be a mystery.be glad that it came to live in your life,even if it was for a moment..
If you keep you heart open,it will come again..
*untitled*
my laptop was sent for repair the other day due to some hard disk problem..and so and so..when it came back to me today,it was good.yea!it was so good that all my photographs,songs and everything went blank..!wat a good thing to start of my day..??
*fullstop*not in a good mood due to the reasons above*
p/s:: idiots are fun!! no wonder every village wants one.: (a lil sumthing from a blog i came across)
*fullstop*not in a good mood due to the reasons above*
p/s:: idiots are fun!! no wonder every village wants one.: (a lil sumthing from a blog i came across)
Thursday, March 1, 2007
*failure*
i guess that's what i really am...
i fail in my studies(not literally though)
i'm failing in my aim to be a better pooler
failing in quitting the "thing" i'm supposed to be quitting
worst,a failure as to be the "near perfect" person
i guess that's wat i really am..
am i??
i fail in my studies(not literally though)
i'm failing in my aim to be a better pooler
failing in quitting the "thing" i'm supposed to be quitting
worst,a failure as to be the "near perfect" person
i guess that's wat i really am..
am i??
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