Reflection

"the grass isn't always as green or much more greener on the others.. just enjoy the days you have... "those were the words that dektos left on my c-box few days back..those words,true and proven by my own experience,made me realized several things..

nothing seems to be as good as it seems on the outer side..how would we know if the inner side of that particular thing would be as beautiful,yet alone,even better,as the outer side..is there any guarantee?many of us always think that we are forever the unlucky ones and constantly asks ourselves the very same question each day;"why is God treating me this way?giving me shits and giving others more blessings everyday than i have ever got in my entire life..?why is it that others seem to be having a better life than i am??"...the main question?W-H-Y???

instead of asking ouselves and questioning God for everything that goes wrong with us,lets juz look at it from another point of view,shall we?are those ppl whom we claim are so much happier than us really happy deep inside..?for all we know,they might be having problems much greater than ours and stil being able to put aside their problems and live life as it comes to them everyday,every moment..

like dektos has said,"enjoy the days u have",i realised that i have been complaining of the one thing that i have dreamt of while the examinations was on going..the HOLIDAYS..during the exams,i was juz wishing for the exams to to pass on within a blink of an eye so that the holidays could greet me in a very very fashionable way..how was i to know that upon arrival,i was bored to death and complained about it all the time without fail..until dektos came with those words of his..it was my short term dream of having the hols,but in the end,my "dream" turned out to be a nightmare..and now,the thing that i have been missing all this while was the fun of stressing myself to the boiling moments studying for the exams..many of my peeps reading this may beg to differ but then before you do,ask youselves deep down inside and question yourselves if u do miss those moments in coll??for one,i do..

we juz never treasure anything that is in front of us until they or it has turned their back on us or rather juz left from our sight,feelings,grasp and also our memories..we constantly missed the things that has passed us for a long long time..and without realizing it,when those things were with us,we never did take the initiative to treasure those things..until the moment we realized that we are never gonna get them back,we start to miss them and wished that we could turn back time,dont we?

when will be the time that we learnt our lesson?or never will we learn our lesson and then allow the same thing to happen over and over again and then resulting in us banging our heads on the wall countless times with deep regrets and agony??i once again,feel that no matter how many times we say"oh i've learnt my lesson and i'll never repeat those actions again..",we will stil do it over and over again..then when will we ever learn?the answer??we never will..its human nature and its unavoidable..we can try to change but will that be enough?


~adios-chaoz-byebye-tata-sayonara~


p/s:writing this particular post has made me realized that i really love you,and for now,i juz wanna treasure the times i have with you without any hestitations or holdbacks.if u dunt love me being me,then i guess i was juz not meant for you..becuz i learnt that in order to love someone and for that someone to love you in return,you need to be yourself and if i being myself juz wouldnt be good enough for you,then so be it..